Stress triggers (Part 1)

Please be warned that this post might trigger mental health issues and depression. Please know that there is always help if you are struggling. Please have the courage to reach out.  In my life, several things trigger emotions in me. When I was a little bit younger, I didn't really notice them or care for them. As I think and analyze more about myself and my surroundings, I have started to notice them. It is fair to say that this process has been happening since 2017. When I was in my teens, I had the "disease to please" everyone (Oprah called it), especially my parents. Like any teenager, I tried to fit in and get good grades. Whose sake? Most likely for the approval of my parents. With my hard work, I got As and Bs on most subjects except English. It is funny. English was my least favorite subject, yet I studied in America, and I use English for my work. Don't give wrong, I liked the praise. Given my surroundings and education at that point, my view of life or anyth...
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2024.11.25: Day I don't know

    Since the last incident on the train with a lady falling on my injured foot, everything has been normal for the most part.

     I had my regular physical therapist sessions and x-ray appointments. I had my last x-ray last Monday and the doctor said everything looks good. Also, I resumed my swimming. It felt SO GOOD just to be in the pool. Of course, I cannot do flip-turns or use full force, yet. Still, it is so nice to move in the water. 

     My father came to visit me while I was using one crutch. He helped with carrying things. It was nice to have my father with me for a little over a week. A week after my father left, my fridge broke down. I don't know the reason. All of a sudden, it stopped working. I cleaned the back of the refrigerator and left it unplugged for a day, no use. It is broken. My cousins suggested calling a handyman or ordering freon. I told them I don't know anything about it so you have to figure it out. Besides their Japanese language level is much higher than mine. At the moment, I have square shaped mini fridge which is working fine. Thank goodness, I didn't have much meat or frozen things. Well, I had a block of ground beef and frozen veggies. I cooked everything and had it for lunch for a week.

     The temperature is dropping outside. I find Japanese winters very cold, colder than Mongolia. People are surprised when I tell them this. In Mongolia, it snows a lot, but only your hands or cheeks will feel the cold. In Japan, you feel the coldness inside your core. Also, Japanese homes are not insulated or have double windows for insulation. So, it is very uncomfortable inside the homes. Mongolian homes have insulation and double windows and it is very comfortable inside. You can be in a T-shirt or shorts and you feel good. 

     Yesterday and today, I am doing a lot of little things around the house. I know that I should have done them sooner rather than later. I know I was lazy. Now, I am forcing myself to do things right then and finish them. 

    Thanks for reading. 

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