I Eat Everyday

Recently, I have been noticing that I am becoming a bit lazier than usual.   Don't give me wrong, I really enjoy a day here and there with absolutely nothing to do or the desire to do. That usually happens every few months.   However, lately I've noticed I don't feel like doing anything.   There are things I want to do in my head, but my body or my mood isn't moving.   Then again, yesterday, when my cousin asked if I could sew up his pants, I did in a few minutes. Then, I felt like I wanted to sew more. Maybe I need a setup or trigger to do something.   So, I tested the theory. I had some computer work. So, I set up my computer and am still working.   But to combat my laziness that is creeping up, I think I will start without imagining the commitments and time that I will be spending. Then it might work?

Since mid-March, it has been non-stop.   First, I had to finalize all the financial statements for my father's Japanese company. Like last year, I went to three different offices. The last one, I really didn't have to go because I went there last year to fill out a form indicating that the company cannot operate since my father hasn't gotten his business visa. Anyhow, everything took about 5 hours to complete, which isn't bad. Second, my brother came to Tokyo during the school holiday. He went with me on my days off. Then, soon after, my father came. So, I have my work. Then my days off were used by my father and brother. They wanted to go to new places. They hardly stayed home.   Third, during the school breaks, I run programs that I am in charge of.   On a positive note, I have been fasting every day. Taking lunch to work became so bothersome, so I would break my fast in the morning with a nice whole meal in the morning. I finish my eating window with either yogurt or...

     It always feels sad to say goodbye.       It has been almost a month since I came home. I helped my parents, especially my mom, move things and clean. My mom just started a tourist base an hour from the city center. There were a lot of things to do, specifically, little things that needed to be done. Then I became an inpatient at Bodi Setgelten (the one I was hospitalized back in May of this year). I spent 5 days and got home today. Now, I have a few more days before I go.       No matter how many times I have said goodbye to my family and friends, I always feel sad. Initially, I felt like crying. I cried once when I had to leave my 3-month-old brother. Even though I don't cry anymore, I always feel sad.       Back in May, I thought to myself that I needed to come back home at least once a year. It helps my sanity and physically ( I am in a cooler environment when it is the hottest in Japan).  Also, I g...